Inspired By You.

(Late night thoughts= deep blog post. Oh snap)


I think most people nowadays are looking for something to fill voids within them. Something inside us is simply lacking and we constantly crave the desire to fill whatever this "thing" inside us is. Where do we go? What do we turn to? Who do we turn to? For me, I'm constantly searching, constantly trying to understand what it is that I'm looking for. I always seem to think I'm on the right track, but then I seem to find myself back at square one time and time again. I'm currently in New York visiting my brother and got to watch his basketball game. After the game my family and I were in the car and suddenly my brother became very down on himself. He said he was at a point with basketball where he didn't know how much more he could take of his quote on quote "mistakes." I never knew how much he was struggling with this because he always puts on this front and acts like everything is okay. To me, he's doing great with basketball, he's always putting in the extra time and literally draining himself to the point of complete exhaustion just to "get better." When I looked over at him and saw the pain in his eyes, right there my heart just broke.  My brother over the years has become my best friend.  Whether  he knows it or not he's one of my biggest role models. When I see him succeed I want to make myself better. When I see him conquer what I think is the "impossible" I can't help but smile. And when I see him lacking that spirit and drive he always portrays, I can't help but get a little down too.  My dad, being the "picker uper he is" chimed in with "Nick you don't even know how much of an inspiration you are, you gotta keep going, don't give up." It's true, I don't think he even comprehends how much he inspires others and that's something I admire about him. He truly inspires me, every single day. And it hit me, I don't need one certain thing to fill this so call void, it's just about finding that inspiration in your life and motivating yourself and others around you to make your dreams into reality, to find that happiness I guess you could call it. Maybe I'm just pulling an Oprah moment over here, but to me this all somehow makes sense. Inspiration is all around us, but it's up to us to open our eyes and truly see what we can become. Although, we all may feel empty sometimes, lack that self-confidence, or think we're not worth it, if you choose to dig deep enough and look for that inspiration around you, you'll see you're not really lost, you're just on your way to finding who/what you're truly worth. I got out of the car and held in my tears, but as soon as I hugged him I became a human waterfall. I didn't wanna let him go.  Since we're both away at college now, the times I see him are limited so saying goodbye to him every time is hard, but tonight was especially difficult. It was one of those brother/sisterly moments I can't  explain, but it was nice how he didn't really wanna let me go either. There was a time in my life where I honestly thought we would never be close or ever be able to bond, but these past 5 or so years have been eye openers and he's been there every step of the way with that wacky smile and some hard core advice that makes you think until you're brain hurts. I'm not sure if he knows what he's done for me, but besides being a great brother hes a true inspiration and a friend, a best friend that anyone would be lucky to have. What else could I ask for? Not much. Thank you Nick. I love you.

I HAVE A YOUTUBE?!?!

HELLO THERE PEEPS

Way way way back in the day I started a youtube channel. Starting the channel had been something I wanted to do for quite sometime. I don't know why I enjoy it. Talking to a camera about whatever whenever and then editing it to make it all fancy is actually fun for me. Weird, right? Yes, I'm aware, but it is what it is. Im cool with it:)

I really want to make Youtube a full time priority in my life. I think it would be a great experience, something cool and exciting that not a lot of people do. I know though it takes awhile to grow a channel, but I'm willing to stick it out and do what I gots to do to make my channel successful.

So if you happen to come across my Youtube feel free to check out all my weird videos, like and maybe spread the word about it? THAT WOULD MAKE ME ONE HAPPY GAL.

I'll even give you the link...

http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2xh9N346cKUmu6--mIciqQ
http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2xh9N346cKUmu6--mIciqQ
http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2xh9N346cKUmu6--mIciqQ
WHOOOP DER IT IS.
THIS BE MY CHANNEL.
Even copy and pasted it 3 times incase...well I don't know why I did, I just, did.


But in all seriousness, thank you for helping me out I truly appreciate. Everyones journey starts somewhere and I'm glad mines starting right here and now (wow totally went troy and gabrelella on you)

Have an awesome day everyone!
Don't Forget Your Smile.
-Ali xoxo